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Friday, November 28, 2008
its always good to skip a day of school.
yes! i skipped class =)
becos its some construction site visit & it doesnt interest me that much.
my BELOVED sweeties in school!
yes! i skipped class =)
becos its some construction site visit & it doesnt interest me that much.
instead, a last minute dinner arrangement with bestie was what i wanted!
i travelled for 1hr or so to woodlands to MEET her.
a long bus ride with pleasing songs & a little dozing off as & when is just so ME! LOL~
korean food followed by window shopping in causeway.
mc cafe at civic plaza, online download themes.
her lappy hibernated =(
trained back to outram with her,
& cabbed home for me!
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inside joke;
ha-ha-ha honeystar!
wahahaha.
like total embarrassed lah! -.-
some SUPER CRAZY pics with BESTIE! (2 weeks ago)
my BELOVED sweeties in school!
taken in church =)
after the last lesson of teach the gospel class.
we are TRAINED teachers now! haa`
★left her thoughts at
1:57 AM
1:57 AM
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Its all about tests & results today =/
1st was CS's Meet-the-Resident Session.
2nd was briefing for next term idea assignment & results of 3D form presentation.
3rd was gems written test.
sometimes all it takes is just one more truth.
i understood that now. it feels like a slap on my face & it said move on!
i didnt know he could be such coward.
i didnt know he could be that naive to believe that keeping secrets do exist in this modernised world now 纸是包不住火
its useless to talk about the past; for it had already ended.
but somehow that secret triggered my sub-consciousness and reminds me of the past we had. the many things he tried to hide from me, somehow.somewhat i will find out.
in a way or another, i do understand him.
i am disheartened to know that truth. but yet i am glad its over =)
one advice to whom it may concern,
若要人不知,除非己莫为
1st was CS's Meet-the-Resident Session.
2nd was briefing for next term idea assignment & results of 3D form presentation.
3rd was gems written test.
sometimes all it takes is just one more truth.
i understood that now. it feels like a slap on my face & it said move on!
i didnt know he could be such coward.
i didnt know he could be that naive to believe that keeping secrets do exist in this modernised world now 纸是包不住火
its useless to talk about the past; for it had already ended.
but somehow that secret triggered my sub-consciousness and reminds me of the past we had. the many things he tried to hide from me, somehow.somewhat i will find out.
in a way or another, i do understand him.
i am disheartened to know that truth. but yet i am glad its over =)
one advice to whom it may concern,
若要人不知,除非己莫为
★left her thoughts at
12:02 AM
12:02 AM
Monday, November 24, 2008
its MONDAY!
MUMMY!! back to the 70s . . . .haha
class today was just short & sweet.
1st was CS at 11.30, did our rehearsal for MTR session.
the real thing is on WEDNESDAY! *chills*
lunched at fc 1;
followed by an hour or so of CADD.
and we call it a DAY! =)
went to configure nys lappy at T3;
discussion for MTR at mac & finally HOME sweet HOME!
yesterday's church was tiring.
it ended almost 2pm!
cause of the primary board meeting =/
im teaching FOUR princesses next year,how exciting is that!
apart from my usual 3princesses, myra is joining too.
they are so gonna be LOVED!
MUMMY!! back to the 70s . . . .haha
★left her thoughts at
6:01 PM
6:01 PM
Friday, November 21, 2008
i am not happy at all; i dont know why.
its really hard to get by these days.
i dont enjoy whatever i am doing.
i have no enthusiasm in school, everyday is just another passing day.
i miss the TYLC days,
although im repeating my Os, but there wasnt a slightest boredom.
although the students came from different background, we shared the same thinking.
although its only 9months spent, it seems like we known each other for a very long time.
days of night-outs at Lau Pa Sat's supper, Clarke Quay's poker session.esplanade's fireworks display.badminton at kim seng cc. birthday chalet at east coast.
even bestie found her true love in TYLC~ =]
term test starting 1st dec.
1st paper ECTP~ whhhhaaattt!! =((
its really hard to get by these days.
i dont enjoy whatever i am doing.
i have no enthusiasm in school, everyday is just another passing day.
i miss the TYLC days,
although im repeating my Os, but there wasnt a slightest boredom.
although the students came from different background, we shared the same thinking.
although its only 9months spent, it seems like we known each other for a very long time.
days of night-outs at Lau Pa Sat's supper, Clarke Quay's poker session.esplanade's fireworks display.badminton at kim seng cc. birthday chalet at east coast.
even bestie found her true love in TYLC~ =]
term test starting 1st dec.
1st paper ECTP~ whhhhaaattt!! =((
★left her thoughts at
10:03 PM
10:03 PM
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
okay.let me recall what happened since Friday. . .
-ECTP lecture in the early hours of the day
-lunch at NUS with Mummy & Sis
-back to sch for BS tutorial
-head home & prepare for meet up with my 3 beloved ones
-dinner with jas, terence & zhi xian at marina sq hotpot culture
-left immed after that to meet nys
-jas joined us, nys left.
-camwhored with bestie (when two ordinary people comes together, we do EXTRAORDINARY stuffs.LOL!)
-cabbed home with bestie =D
Saturday was a stay-home-day.
half the day had past when i woke up.haha
stayed home to complete my ECTP sketches -.-
Sunday was church!
lunch at west coast;
& home sweet home!
nap followed by walk at Hill Park
Monday was BLUES!
puddles of water along walkway of SP =/
silly toads making awful sound in the drain at FC 1.
my mood was super down~
CADD is still as brain hurting as ever.argghhs!
TODAY was COOL!
Though its LAW lecture & tutorial.
Though its LAW lecture & tutorial.
Time swift passed.
By 12noon, we are done!
Down to Vivo for lunch & shopping with favourite sweeties.
Down to Vivo for lunch & shopping with favourite sweeties.
Wooots.TRIANGLE back into formation~
all we do is laugh & laugh & LAUGH!!
★left her thoughts at
5:07 PM
5:07 PM
Thursday, November 13, 2008
thurs afternoon are always so BLUE~
today's weather made it WORST!
what pissed me off are those [sup ckak shoie] people . . .
the more i see them, the more paranoid i gets.
its just a mutual expression, a vice versa act.
if you are giving me your sucky attitude;dont expect me to be nice to you.
i can even treat as though you people doesnt exist at all.
i know i am brought up with doctrine of the church to treat everyone nice,to be forgiving, to love one another & the postive lists goes on . . .
but whats the point of being nice when you get shit at the end of the day?
its not the first time im experiencing that shitty fake-ness from her.
treat me as though im transparent, & i will treat you as though you are a SORE from now on..& i mean it!! ARRGGGHH~
today's weather made it WORST!
what pissed me off are those [sup ckak shoie] people . . .
the more i see them, the more paranoid i gets.
its just a mutual expression, a vice versa act.
if you are giving me your sucky attitude;dont expect me to be nice to you.
i can even treat as though you people doesnt exist at all.
i know i am brought up with doctrine of the church to treat everyone nice,to be forgiving, to love one another & the postive lists goes on . . .
but whats the point of being nice when you get shit at the end of the day?
its not the first time im experiencing that shitty fake-ness from her.
treat me as though im transparent, & i will treat you as though you are a SORE from now on..& i mean it!! ARRGGGHH~
DOMO!!!
★left her thoughts at
5:48 PM
5:48 PM
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Just had my eye exam done at SP Optometry Centre.
Its part of my gems module.
It took more than an hour luh -.-
There are bumpiness on my upper eyelid,probably due to unsuitable contact lenses or allergy.
Been advised not to wear contacts for the time being =/
yesterday's cadd lesson was sucky!
DULAN,PEK CHEK ahh!!
just couldnt get the dimensions right.
Who knows why i chose this course man.
its basically too GENERAL that you literally learn EVERYTHING!
my idea 3D figure arent done yet luh.
couldnt be bothered lah.
no insipiration at all.haa!
Many little little details happened over the past few days;
which caused the emotions in me to be triggered again.
I am merely covering up whatever i can.
I am trying hard to let it not affect me.
I dont say i dont care; when i seriously still do.
Its just a matter of consequences.
Its still as hurting as ever; especially when its moving on so fast.
Was 'it' ever something significant to you? only God knows.
I got reprimanded by bestie for telling her some but-he-didnt (...) thingy.
The aftermath of 'it' is disturbing, is disheartening & definitely hurting.
Certain words said before had became a thorn in my heart, never removable.
Certain actions did could caused a suicide to take place.
I dont see the reason for my emotions.
It seriously doesnt matter anymore now.
Its part of my gems module.
It took more than an hour luh -.-
There are bumpiness on my upper eyelid,probably due to unsuitable contact lenses or allergy.
Been advised not to wear contacts for the time being =/
yesterday's cadd lesson was sucky!
DULAN,PEK CHEK ahh!!
just couldnt get the dimensions right.
Who knows why i chose this course man.
its basically too GENERAL that you literally learn EVERYTHING!
my idea 3D figure arent done yet luh.
couldnt be bothered lah.
no insipiration at all.haa!
Many little little details happened over the past few days;
which caused the emotions in me to be triggered again.
I am merely covering up whatever i can.
I am trying hard to let it not affect me.
I dont say i dont care; when i seriously still do.
Its just a matter of consequences.
Its still as hurting as ever; especially when its moving on so fast.
Was 'it' ever something significant to you? only God knows.
I got reprimanded by bestie for telling her some but-he-didnt (...) thingy.
The aftermath of 'it' is disturbing, is disheartening & definitely hurting.
Certain words said before had became a thorn in my heart, never removable.
Certain actions did could caused a suicide to take place.
I dont see the reason for my emotions.
It seriously doesnt matter anymore now.
★left her thoughts at
4:55 PM
4:55 PM
Sunday, November 9, 2008
church today was absolutely awesome!
been ages since i've been that pro-active.
teach the gospel class left with 1 last lesson next week.
& i wont be teaching my princesses next year,
moving on to seniors ones.TERROR! =/
sit in with germaine for gospel lesson.
YSAs family home evening after church (shall not elaborate) emo~
headed to ann param's place for VT together with germaine & jaceline =)
went home for a short rest, & out again for swim.
cabbed home & here i am blogging.
SUPER SUNDAY!
germaine wants to go Brigham Young University too!
but BYU-provo seems hard to get in,they want A levels.
even with straight aces diploma, its unlikely to get in =/
BYU-hawaii or BYU-Idaho should be another option though.
i wanna study in BYU. . . in 3yrs time =D
http://www.byuh.edu/
http://www.byui.edu/
i am not obliged to whatever happening now.
i am not entertaining anymore.
i am not encouraging anymore.
i am not enthusiastic anymore.
i believe in karma.
what goes around comes around.
been ages since i've been that pro-active.
teach the gospel class left with 1 last lesson next week.
& i wont be teaching my princesses next year,
moving on to seniors ones.TERROR! =/
sit in with germaine for gospel lesson.
YSAs family home evening after church (shall not elaborate) emo~
headed to ann param's place for VT together with germaine & jaceline =)
went home for a short rest, & out again for swim.
cabbed home & here i am blogging.
SUPER SUNDAY!
germaine wants to go Brigham Young University too!
but BYU-provo seems hard to get in,they want A levels.
even with straight aces diploma, its unlikely to get in =/
BYU-hawaii or BYU-Idaho should be another option though.
i wanna study in BYU. . . in 3yrs time =D
http://www.byuh.edu/
http://www.byui.edu/
i am not obliged to whatever happening now.
i am not entertaining anymore.
i am not encouraging anymore.
i am not enthusiastic anymore.
i believe in karma.
what goes around comes around.
★left her thoughts at
11:22 PM
11:22 PM
Saturday, November 8, 2008
today was spent with beloved tau pok sis at Kbox.
we went for klunch at lucky chinatown.
we went for klunch at lucky chinatown.
suppose to end at 2.but we continued singing till almost 4..haa
sis lost her stamina half way through, cos her sinus buddy bumped into her again.LOL!
she & her sneezes.PPPSSSSTTTTT =X
headed to vivo, bought some snacks at basement.
went to buy her slippers at mphosis.
badminton courts at radin mas occupied for next weekends =/
going kim seng to check out tomorrow though.
weekends passing by so soon.
unknowingly, its gonna be mon again!
its school again!
its lecture again!
its tutorial again!
now i understand why do opposite attracts;
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he's the eldest, i'm the youngest.
1 from chinese orchestra, the other from band.
1 goes temple, the other goes church.
1 hardly speaks up, the other talks non-stop.
1 keep quiet throughout, the other questions continuously.
1 wants to stay home, the other wants to be out.
1 capricorn, the other cancerian (opposite signs)
somehow i dont feel that hurting anymore.
somehow i cry lesser.
somehow i beginning to get over it.
somehow i knew thats the way it will be.
somehow i know i need to move on.
★left her thoughts at
10:25 PM
10:25 PM
Thursday, November 6, 2008
sch days are passing by as slow as possible this week =/
finally one more day to weekend =)
busy with tests the past few days.
circular writing test was okayy.
ectp retest was terror!
its not like i didnt study,but...somehow.i couldnt get it luh.
its the 4th week of term 3.
in another month's time, its HOLIDAYS! =D
sch's been getting dreadful lately,i wonder why.
BUT with the 2 sweeties around, it makes sch more worthwhile! =))
finally one more day to weekend =)
busy with tests the past few days.
circular writing test was okayy.
ectp retest was terror!
its not like i didnt study,but...somehow.i couldnt get it luh.
its the 4th week of term 3.
in another month's time, its HOLIDAYS! =D
sch's been getting dreadful lately,i wonder why.
BUT with the 2 sweeties around, it makes sch more worthwhile! =))
★left her thoughts at
6:00 PM
6:00 PM
Saturday, November 1, 2008
after almost 3months or so, i finally met him on thurs.
at that point of time, i was loss for words.
we used to have never-ending conversation.
we used to be loud and noisy.
i tried holding back my tears, but i couldnt
i dont want him to see the red eyes of mine.
& bestie accompanied me to the washroom.
finally,he spoke to me
i responded in the most absurd manner.
the loud "WHAT" that i said frightened him.
what a huge reaction i gave, i dont know either.
throughout the K-singing session,
i avoided eyes contact with him.
i was busy texting my fears away.
trying hard to diversify the attention of him.
except for occasionally laughters & jokes.
i was stoning my time there.
i had so much to say,to understand from him.
we left for home together.
i was telling myself if i dont clarify the matter now,
probably i will never have any chance to do so.
thus,i text him, though we were just seats behind each other.
& again, i ask for one more chance.
he declined . . .still
& finally,
one last hug.
one last kiss.
...we parted amiably =)
i & him agreed to be best buddies like in the past.
perhaps the friendship in us deserves more appreciation and respect.
from this,
i can conclude:
...relationships are as vulnerable as it can be
...never love someone more than he/she does
...nothing is fair in relationships
...once the feeling is gone,nothing works anymore
THANK YOU to those who stood by me during this darkest moments.
ESPECIALLY..BESTIE JASREEL
...my beloved tau pok sis
...my 2 sweeties in sch_anisah & pita
...zhixian
...benjamin
...kani
...rere
=))
whats left now is to get over it & move on with my life!
at that point of time, i was loss for words.
we used to have never-ending conversation.
we used to be loud and noisy.
i tried holding back my tears, but i couldnt
i dont want him to see the red eyes of mine.
& bestie accompanied me to the washroom.
finally,he spoke to me
i responded in the most absurd manner.
the loud "WHAT" that i said frightened him.
what a huge reaction i gave, i dont know either.
throughout the K-singing session,
i avoided eyes contact with him.
i was busy texting my fears away.
trying hard to diversify the attention of him.
except for occasionally laughters & jokes.
i was stoning my time there.
i had so much to say,to understand from him.
we left for home together.
i was telling myself if i dont clarify the matter now,
probably i will never have any chance to do so.
thus,i text him, though we were just seats behind each other.
& again, i ask for one more chance.
he declined . . .still
& finally,
one last hug.
one last kiss.
...we parted amiably =)
i & him agreed to be best buddies like in the past.
perhaps the friendship in us deserves more appreciation and respect.
from this,
i can conclude:
...relationships are as vulnerable as it can be
...never love someone more than he/she does
...nothing is fair in relationships
...once the feeling is gone,nothing works anymore
THANK YOU to those who stood by me during this darkest moments.
ESPECIALLY..BESTIE JASREEL
...my beloved tau pok sis
...my 2 sweeties in sch_anisah & pita
...zhixian
...benjamin
...kani
...rere
=))
whats left now is to get over it & move on with my life!
★left her thoughts at
11:11 PM
11:11 PM